Finding My Means – Weeks 4 & 5. Yup, I’ve already missed a week and am playing catch-up. I’m trying not to let myself get too down about this, but at the moment I am miserably sick with a cold so I’m down in general. At the moment I’m standing up at my standing desk and trying to let interesting words, no, any words, flow from my brain to my fingertips. Here’s what I’ve got so far.
I think I’ll go sit down now.
Anyway…I guess I should have anticipated that I wouldn’t want to/have much time to share what’s going on in my world while on Spring Break with my fam. In fact, for Week 4’s update I almost posted a day early, but decided against it because the number on the scale made me sad. I shouldn’t have let that get me down, I know. Especially not when Week 5 wasn’t much better (you’ll see). But…I did do a sneak peek on the scale for Week 6, and if the current trends continue (and I can get off the couch), it’ll be a cheerier update. Now if we could only get some sun that lasts longer than 5 minutes…
Here’s this week’s video that I pulled from my Instagram Story, where I’ve been tracking my food and activity.
BEACH TRIP!!! We got away for a couple of days to the Oregon Coast, and it was so wonderful. The sun came out a bit, we got to play in the sand, Vida and I swam in the hotel pool (yes, I finally put on a bathing suit and didn’t die), and just generally relaxed. Plus, this sunset.
I don’t even want to talk about my grey hair and makeup-free face and questionably colored teeth. Just look at the handsome man and ridiculously cute children.
TV (again), and a Podcast!
So, apparently being on local tv once a month is now a thing that I do. This last time around I made carrot cake blender muffins and I wish I had one right this very minute. Also, I made my first appearance on a podcast! It was so much fun and also super weird to hear my voice coming through my phone on an app where I typically listen to other people’s voices. The episode is geared towards food bloggers, but if you want to take a listen I talk about what it means to me to be vulnerable online.
This is a big deal, folks. I’m finally able to walk again and feel little-to-no pain thanks to Vionic shoes. I’m beyond stoked. Thanks to those of you who recommended them to me! My favorite part is that they are actually cute, not just functional.
The low is pretty much tied to my ongoing struggle/resentment about food. Sometimes I really get annoyed to have to think about food so much. And I’m a food blogger. I think the resentment part comes in because I really want to be able to tap into this mindfulness thing that everyone seems to be talking about lately, and be able to let my body tell me when it’s hungry or full. And I don’t want to always be reaching for allthecarbs. It’s just…sometimes, I don’t want to think about what I eat, or how much I eat, or when I eat, or blah blah blah. I’m just being whiny. I think the main thing is that I’m coming to terms that I might need to count calories, just for a while, so I can start to help my body get used to specific portion sizes, and I can face facts about how much I’m really eating. I do take photos of most of my meals on Instagram, but the truth is that I don’t share everything. Like when I finish off a pint of ice cream at 10pm. Sigh. Yeah, that one didn’t go on my IG Story. Anyway…my goal through this process is to “find my means”, right? Which means sometimes I need to be able to treat within my means. Figuring out exactly how to do that without undoing all my effort – now that is the challenge. Onward!
Typically I do my weekly weigh-ins on Monday morning on my Instagram Story, if you want to see the results before I post them here. This time I’m including two updates together because we ended up being quite the busy bees over Spring Break and I didn’t have my act together.
Starting Weight: 230.8 lbs.
Goal Weight: 140 lbs.
Previous Weight: 226.6 lbs.
Current Weight: 226.4 lbs.
Weight Change past two weeks: -.2 lbs.
Total pounds lost: -4.4 lbs.
Weekly average: -.88 lb. per week (goal is 2 lbs.)
Literally as I was typing this post I got some good news from someone that I love, and I could literally feel my mood change. So amazing how things can turn on a dime like that. This weekend we have sun in the forecast, and tulips to tiptoe through, and I have a little girl’s Easter basket to make because she has been telling me every day for two weeks how excited she is about it. Really, truly, life is good.
See you next week! For real.